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Tuesday, February 18th, 2003
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5:40 pm
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I think I'll switch to Friends Only now. Leave a message and add me as a friend and I'll most probably add you as a friend too. Cool.
current music: The Used - On My Own
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2:13 pm - Your eyes...
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This is even older than the stuff written in the last post.
I still get that look,
I still hear you cry,
I still try to help,
I wish I could fly.
You opened your heart,
You spoke of your mind,
You wanted a friend,
But I was too blind.
Tell me the truth,
Tell me no lies,
Tell me it all when,
I look in your eyes.
Stupid I am,
Stupid as ever,
Stupid I cry,
Feelings I sever.
Cut me like glass,
Cut through my heart,
Cut me in half then,
Tear me apart.
I know how you feel,
I see through your lies,
I understand you when,
I look in your eyes.
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| Monday, February 17th, 2003
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11:09 pm - Emotional Writing
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I wrote this a bit over two years ago. I got an emotional response from everyone I showed it to, except for the one person that really mattered. Life's a bitch sometimes...
To you I regret that the times I forget are nothing but everything, and that which we made in to the most beautiful flower is slowly wilting away. Close my eyes, open my eyes, watch the tears run slowly down my cheek and wish for something more… give me something less. If you take half of something away you have lost half, yet if you start only with half you haven't lost anything. Special to me is the sun that we see, rising through the clouds, illuminating the morning sky. Special to me is the you that I see, but hidden away from the world it will stay, in shadows dark as the night which we prowl until the break of dawn. Break me because I break you… wish me away and away now I've gone. Leaving the world and my feelings behind, but they follow and twist, now I'm hollow, not missed. Everyday that I wake I just wish the world would swallow you, but I know if it did I'd be the one to save you. I know what you know but I speak what you don't and I think in a way in which you'd only sink. I hate what I am and I loathe what's inside, but wings on my back keep me walking on track. When I help I'm in love with the sun and the moon, the trees and the breeze, I'm a god in my mind. So what of my mind and heartache that binds me to pain and the state that I'm in. Ridiculous me and the people I love whom return what I feel in riddles and meaningless words. Now all that I feel is so painfully real that I understand I'm not alive but dead in a world full of systems that steal, cheat, lie, abuse, torture, destroy, manipulate, and fuck with all that we are. If I showed you my light and gave you my soul you could see the world would be pure and our most precious flower would bloom once more. You are that which I am not. It hurts when there's three, but you'll never see me lowering my values to a level I hate, causing pain in which I can not sedate. I love what I feel but I wish it would die and I scream and I cry how I wish I could fly far away from your mind which I read like a book, if you only could look and see what I mean. When I dream it's of you and a world that I love which I make out to be such a beautiful place, but it's given nothing to me and that which I have I give back with such pride it burns though my heart. You sit now alone, in the world that you need, and you taste the sweet lips - your beast of destiny, whose eyes are now blind and is burning your mind and for a moment you think that world is alive, but it dies and I soon hear your cries. Deliver me swiftly to Satan for I am his devil disguised as an angel. Our beautiful flower is burnt in my hands. I fall in to hell, it's where I belong, I'll never look back, how was I so wrong? If only the world could be ours like I dreamed, everything could have been perfect.
current music: On My Own - The Used
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7:41 pm - Hmmmm...
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Would people be more inclined to read my site and leave comments if it was here @ livejournal as opposed to my current site @ http://soulless.misanthropy.ca??????
Leave a comment and let me know what you think.
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| Sunday, February 2nd, 2003
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12:13 pm - http://soulless.misanthropy.ca
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I'm updating this again. No real reason. I'm sort of bored yet I know I could find something productive to do if I tried. There isn't any real need for me to use this as my webpage is virtually the same except it has a cooler layout. Plus, I got sucked in to using a crap LJ username. Seapig? How stupid. I thought it was simply for logging in as it told me I could select a different screen name. Well, I didn't know that only applied on my LJ page. Plus, someone had taken soulless. I don't even think they were using it. Oh, I use my account simply for commenting on other people's LJ's.
Anyway, I may as well finish this post by writing my site address out a few times.
http://soulless.misanthropy.ca
http://soulless.misanthropy.ca
http://soulless.misanthropy.ca
http://soulless.misanthropy.ca
http://soulless.misanthropy.ca
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| Thursday, September 5th, 2002
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7:47 pm - Fuck Yeah
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Still alive, still at http://soulless.misanthropy.ca but it's looking a little empty because I'm slowly updating the page. It'll be ready in a couple of weeks.
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| Thursday, May 16th, 2002
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4:43 pm - Another page move!!!
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| Monday, January 7th, 2002
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10:04 pm - I don't use this LJ
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| Thursday, November 15th, 2001
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7:01 pm - Ma' page ha' moved wunce again.
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| Tuesday, November 13th, 2001
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11:35 pm - New page address
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| Friday, August 31st, 2001
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1:08 am - GEEEEE WHIZZZZZZ
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Why am I updating this? I don't use this??? I think that because I never use it, it makes adding an entry in it seem more exciting... or something... bah, what a waste of time.
GO TO SOULLESS and read my updated Journal! Now that has to be more exciting than reading this... well, actually, I'm not making any promises on that one...
current mood:  mellow
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| Monday, August 20th, 2001
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12:25 am - WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!?!?
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Whoa! Why is it all so empty??? I'll tell you why... because I have a better page else where! Where is that??? SOULLESS.
So don't ever expect this page to be updated...
I only got this page so I could have a little picture when I replied to peoples live journal entries... :D
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| Sunday, August 12th, 2001
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9:59 pm - http://soulless.says.it
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